I'M DONE!!!!

All exams have been written, practical skills have been learned... now for my on-the-job-training!! Yay!!

I am going out for supper tonight!!!

I PASSED!

Everyone passed. Only a small amount of relief though, still have one more exam tomorrow!

30 minutes and I was finished!

I just got out of my exam. It took me a whole 30 minutes to do it twice over to make sure that there were no mistakes made on the sheet. I get my results at 11. This is so absolutely nervewracking. I need a week in Mexico for sure!

So nervous I could puke!

I am so nervous. I didn't sleep well last night. Kept having weird dreams! Well here goes it, at least I can't say that I didn't try!

I am glad that I didn't stay in a dorm during university!

We are a bunch of zombies! It's to the point that none of us can focus. I know that being at home during university we very beneficial for me becuase there is no way that I would be able to study with people banging and clanging about in the halls.

So here's to Part A! I have done the best that I can.

It worked!

Wow! It actually worked! Just reliving the days when I was back in Sweden and I was appreciated for being outgoing and allbeit just a little bit crazy!

Trying something new!

One day I will figure out how to put statcounter on here!

But in the meantime...

Must find the motivation to study!

I have one of my most important exams tomorrow. I have no motivation right now to study. I didn't sleep well last night which is a total letdown compared to the sleep that I had last night. I even went as far as driving to the outskirts of town for some Timmy Ho's and that still hasn't given me the motivation yet! If I don't pass this exam, the three months that I have spent here in ahhh ummmm Saskatchewan will be a total waste of time. I am fighting with words again. This is not a good sign!!

Fyucking hell i'm bored!

There's nothing to do! I don't even have any knitting to do either!
Saskatchewan sucks!

With that over, I am happy now that I've got a coffee buzz on!

After reluctantly dragging myself out of bed, I got dressed and went to Starbucks. I guess am trying to enjoy the last few days of city living!! At least Red Deer is only 20 minutes away!!

I don't need anymore fucking sugar coating!!! It's making me sick!!!

I was delivered some real truths tonight. It was from a drunk person, but in a sense it was truth nonetheless!

Apparently my personality is as big as my ass. It potentially doesn't vouch well for my chosen profession as well because I wear my heart not only on my sleeve but also everywhere else. Wow.

It's all really to hard to digest right now. The last month alone has been absolutely mindblowing. I never thought that in a million years that I would concieve of this.

I am having a really hard time restraining myself from packing every last stitch of this room up and leaving... with two crucial days left.

The thing that bugs me the most about all of this is that I completely set myself up for all this. I wanted all this, in a sick twisted way.

Apparently I am not educated enough for my in-laws!!

Yet another crushing blow!

Oh man! Get me home!!

I am in the homestretch now!!! I only have 4 days left!!! I will be back in my own bed!!!!!!!!!!

Another reason why I want to go home is because my dear old puppy dog is old and sick. My cousin insisted that my mother take him to the vet before she comes to take care of him for one night. So as a result, we have a $200 vet bill and the knowledge that he's got cancer, a dislocated shoulder, arthritis, and infected tonsils. Now you're probably thinking oh my god put the poor thing out his misery!! He's gotta be suffering! The thing is he isn't!! He still struts around the house, he still likes to go out side when it's cold!! He's happiest when he all snuggled up with someone! I can't wait to get home to see him. I know he will meet his fate soon, it's just a matter of time, he's 16. But I want to be able to make him happy for the time that he has left.

There is only one thing that remains in my mind... where do I get him creamated?

Come on abuse me more, I like it!

Sounds like a Silverchair song doesn't it! Yeah, but you know what it is soooo true!! I found out my examination marks, and I passed. But the mental abuse leading up to it nearly had me in tears! So with that relief I thought that I could calm down, nahhh not in the slightest! I still have a whole wack of tests within the next week and a half. That I can handle.

But the thought of having to go through 4 performance reviews in a year! HOLY SHIT!!!! Oh well... it's friday. I can party! I passed Part B!!!

It must be Friday tomorrow!!!

Oh my god am I ever cranky! I swear, people have just simply looked at me today and I could have screamed so loud in their face. I haven't felt like that in a very long time, and in a way I feel guilty for it. I just don't know in what way.

I am looking forward to tomorrow because maybe I won't feel as stressed as I do right now. I left my hotel for three hours hoping that I would be able to feel better. And I sort of did... I got back and I was fine, I was going to head back to room and enjoy my Subway that I bought. Yeah, my bliss was slightly tarnished. That was okay, I could handle that. But now I'm black again. The one person who annoys the ever living daylights out of me here, just had to call, ugh!

Why does January always bug me???

Yet another wait begins!!

I had a VERY VERY big exam today. I think that I did well. Found out the problem, gave some options to which would help solve the problem, came up with a plan for solving that problem and then presented a follow-up. And now I wait, I wait until Friday to hear my results and also to go through my merit rating board to see if I get approval. I am glad that I got to go early. I just hope that I can keep my mouth closed enough not to get me into trouble... that should be intersting. I am doing so good already!

It's Sunday!

I'm hungover yet again! UGGGHHHHH

I need some warmth!

Wow! I seriously don't have a good memory when it comes to weather events. I seriously don't ever remember how cold it was last year!! I went outside the other day and thought that wow... this is fucking cold!

In Saskatchewan they are a hearty bunch, and they are freakin crazy!!! Driving around the city on Thursday I've come to (ohhh finding a word my vocabulary... not necessarily appreciate, not really admire???) fill in approprate word here...! I now know that I do move to Saskatchewan, I am buying a 4x4!

Oh my!

Well after the events of Wednesday, it was time to brave the city again and see what I could find. I somehow ended up making two different trips around the city today, which was nice. I need the change of scenery! The walls of my room seem to haunt me right now. Did laundry this morning, it felt good to be so productive that early in the day. Even had the opportunity to do a little retail therapy which does do my soul good, but it doesn't fix everything, especially the bank balance! I got back, had lunch, was contemplating on getting productive and get ready for an exam that I have coming up the week after next. But somehow that didn't work out. Retail therapy was calling me again. So away to Mark's and Wally-World. I behaved myself in Wally-World and my bank account breathed a sigh of relief!!

I come back and decided that what the hell I am going to start preparing for an exam that I have on Monday afternoon. It's nervewracking!! I could go home early if I don't pass! And to top it off there are other things mounting. We cannot discuss how we thought we did with other classmates until Friday after everything is all said and done. I haven't been feeling well. I am tired, and feeling sick the last couple of days. I have been getting abdominal cramps after I eat (no it's not that time!!!). I am really wondering what is going on!?! I just keep telling myself that I can do this, I enjoy the challenge that this has given me. I just can't wait to get this all done, go home knock 'em off their feet and get going with this whole life plan thing.

I was in the blizzard of 007!

What a day yesterday!! Wow, I haven't seen a blizzard like that since I was a kid! The entire city of Saskatoon shut down yesterday. It took people hours to get home. There were lucky ones that got stuck in Walmart and Costco yesterday, which begs the question: which one would you rather get stuck in??? I think I'd have to go with Costco, especially if the demo people are in! They come up with the neatest stuff!

It kinda sucked though, I was planning on getting my car from the dealership yesterday, kinda glad that I didn't. I guess I will have to get it today. It was only $250 and it was some kind of gasket mechanism in my fuel tank, I just hope that I can get some better gas mileage!!

Ohh and class starts late today! Yay! I wish I would have found out if I was still in bed, I could have rolled over and gone back for another hour!!

Oh well, it was interesting to say the least!

Dunk, so very very dunk!

OOOOhhhhh!!! Please someone please tell me how to make the room stop spinning! Oh and I see double!

Finally Friday Is Here!!

Didn't so much this week, but oh my am I ever glad that I get to sleep in tomorrow!! Just gotta remember to put the do not disturb sign on the door so that housekeeping doesn't wake me up!

Back in Big Saskie! Back at 'er!

Wow that was a fast drive!!! The roads were absolutely fabulous. I was able to keep a good pace and I got here in about 5 hours. The only bad part was I just got out of Rosetown and my service engine light came on. I don't think that it's a really big deal, the only thing is now I have to go and find a Chevrolet dealership to get it reset.

I even got my old room back, which I am sort of happy about... it's nice to have the big bed and the big shower, but I think this room had mould in it. Wait and see. The nice thing is that it's warm enough that I can have both windows open... wide open! Only a month left in Big Saskie... I better make the best of it!

Ah 2007!

Hope your new years was fun! Mine consisted of eating a substantially large brunch prepared by my beloved mother. Going out to my mother's best friend's house (who's the closest thing to an aunt/grandmother I will ever find, because she's always been there for me, or usually has an opinion for me or, a good piece of advice or encouragement for me!

I brought along one of my dearest friends of over a decade now (jeesh. we're getting old now!). We reminiced (i'm a little hung over and right now I don't give a shit about spelling!) about old Co-op times, trust me... there are many! That... and things don't change a whole hellva lot around there either. Which is nice and ass backward at the same time! But I think that she had fun just learning how to play Texas Hold'em. No matter how hard she tried to go out, she just kept on winning. She won the whole shebang!

So here's to the promise of a new year. There are alot of things in store for myself and Max. This could be interesting, either trying to get Max to pick a paint color or watching Max paint a wall.

Things that could prove interesing in 2007:
- My job
- Moving out of my mother's house
- Buying a house (especially one which isn't on oak overload!)
- Fixing up the house (trust me there isn't one house out there where there isn't one thing that I would like to change!)
- Max getting his permanent residence visa (only 6 more months to go!)
- Max getting a job
- Max getting a car
- Buying a puppy (this is the precursor to having children... if Max and I can take care of a puppy without any major trips to the vet... I CAN FINALLY GO OFF THE PILL!)
- Buying furniture for our house. I have already come to the determination that we are going to need a king size bed... that and I was sort of hogged out of the bed at 7:00 this morning. Not good! Oh and that home theatre thing... he he he he he... it will be mine!

Oh shit... I think that I need to go back to bed!

Happy New Year!